Hey Guys :)
Thought you'd never see me again? Like one of those bloggers who ditch their blog after a few posts. Well, surprise, I'm still here(and with a terrible stomachache.
So a lot of things have happened since the last post. Like, a lot. I'm now again in high school. And unlike last year, I have someone to sit with during lunch. At first, this seemed great. Fantastic almost. But then, realization dawned to me of what a quiet person I've become. And I'm not sure if it's all great now. I planned on learning Japanese, getting excited about having a japanese pen pal so that I could actually have someone to talk to, and it seemed like that, that was my motivation for learning the language besides my original reason which was so I can understand the japanese music I listened to. I'd also had a small pile of books I've wanted to read. Great books like The Help and terrible books just because of the sake that it's terrible like. Wait for it. Twilight. Isn't a perfect plan to spend my lonesome minutes? And no, I'm not being sarcastic. I'm used to this loneliness. Are you disappointed reader? To find that I'm an antisocial person with no friends and that I might be boring with nothing to talk about? Well, I supposed I might not talk much, but I do think plentiful.
But my plans are ruined. :( I'll only have half the amount of lunchtime so myself, and I'm not sure if that's enough to do everything I wanted....
Not only that, this new group(mostly my fault though) gave me a project to work on. It was supposed to be a map, like a Dora one, and I offered myself to do it because of my artistic abilities! Why! Why did I offer to take on such a heavy task when I had too much assignments already for this weekend? And I'm not sure if I'm actually benefiting from this friendship. After all, they picked me up randomly to sit with them at lunch and probably know almost nothing about me.
And my love life? Hah, don't even bother asking. But there is one guy I'd like to mention before this post ends. I thought he liked me and I sorta admired him, but it hadn't developed into a crush or anything. I mean, he's social and I'm totally not and he always dresses well. He's probably even smarter than I am. Whenever I'm around him in English, I tend to look foolish and my clumsiness goes way off the meter. But it;s nothing really. Just like a little splash of water in a still pond.
I've been thinking about including pictures taken from my real life, but I don't know... will that reveal too much? Uncloak some of my mystery?
I'm not disappointed...
ReplyDeleteNot really sure if that even matters or helps, in any way or shape.
But I just thought I'd let you know that there's atleast someone out there reading your posts :)
Oh and don't worry, I've got almost no friends as well!
What's your story?
DeleteYou really wanna know?
Delete...well here goes nothing, I guess...
(Where do I start?..)
Right now, I'm a 16 year old girl, going to school with a group of weird friends (who actually seem to like me), but it hasn't always been like that.
When I was a kid I used to be completely ignored by all of my classmates. This went on from since I was around 5 until 15 years old. You can do the math, I didn't have any friends not that long ago.
Before that I got abused by my father, but don't pity me, please. I'm not the only one that, that has happened to and my mother divorced him, so I'm alright right now (sort of...).
Let's just get back on that whole "other kids disn't like me" story. (Mainly because, for me, it's a lot easier to write about, than about the other part of my life)
To this day I still don't know why everyone in school ignored me. Maybe it was because I'm quite short or maybe because they all already had a group of friends and I just didn't belong in their little, narrow world...
Amyways, moral of the story, I did learn something out of that. People won't always be there for you, but music always will be (yeah, yeah, I know how cheesy that sounds, but it is the truth). Because I had absolutely no friends during my childhood, I had the time to be able to write stories, which later on developed into songs. When, eventually, I decided to pick up a guitar and practice, until I could write and perform my own songs.
Well that's about where I am today, not really anything THAT special has happened to me, other than having been on the first row in a couple of concerts, if that counts...
I guess you could say that, this is my story.
Being on the first row of concerts? Why that's fantastic! You are so lucky that a group of friends have found you! You don't have to be alone anymore. Reading this, I don't find anything wrong with, but maybe it was your dad that somehow influenced caused the abnormality in your life. But you've turned it into something positive with writing songs so that's great. Especially if you gotten to preform in one of the best ranks!
DeleteThe thing with finding friends, I think it either involves your own natural if extroverted personality or luck. Either reach out to people or people will reach you.
Anyways, I'm glad you have someone to hang out with and I hope nothing separates you from them.
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